Well, here it is...........?

October 31st 2004, When I was 11, my dad and brother got in a fist fight.They were fighting, and I was so scared, because I was so young. This happened on halloween night. My brother left and he called the police on my dad, soon the police came and arrested my dad. Then the rest of my fam. when trick or treating, but before we left he called and wanted to tak to me. he was on the phone saying sorry, but all I did was cry becuase i didn't know What to say becuase I was so angry. the next day, which was my b-day, november 1st, he came home from jail. He came up to me and gave me a hug and started to cry. I told my dad I forgave him, even though inside I really didn't. From then on my family doesn't get along and my parents almost got a divorse.Ever since all this stuff happened, I became a huge rebel,and wearing skater and punk clothes, and listening to hard rock, and shoplifting from stores. Sometimes I even feel like killing myself.I need ur opion on all of this and what should i do?..